Well, schools really going a lot better than last semester. Last semester wasn't even that bad, this one is just better. I couldn't rush because my parents basically banned me from it :( I was kind of upset about that just because it's kinda where I want to be and something I want to do, but oooh well. Yesterday was Valentine's day ! It was a really cute day, and the first time I've had a boyfriend for it ... Richie sent me flowers and the card said "i wish I was with you, can't wait till spring break" saddd face haha. My roommate has a boyfriend, who lives on our floor.. if that's not rubbing it in I don't know what is. I try not to let it bother me, but Penn State just issss kind of far haha. Everyone here has like legit problems that I feel childish saying that I miss someone.. I actually feel guilty for having a good life at home. Mariel doesn't like countdowns, but why should I have to hide my excitement that break is in 21 days ?! Ehhhh whatever. There's like really not much else to write about. What a let down of an entry haha .. sorry lj viewers. <3

 && our memories are my mixtapes
they sing me to sleep every night.

it's too soon to see
if i'm happy in your hands 
i'm unusually hard to hold on to


So we locked ourselves in your car. Got lost in each other's eyes. We sang to the radio. He whispered in her ear & she'd laugh at his silly jokes, even if they were pointless. He's grab her hand & not let go. He had no idea how happy it made her. She'd rest her head on his shoulder, close her eyes, listen to their song while he kissed her forehead. She memorized the touch of his lips. She didn't want to leave anytime soon. & he'd give her his jacket when she told him she was cold. It would be 3 in the morning, but they'd still be tangled in each other. She knew he was something special. It was different how he moved her because when he told her 'goodnight', to her it still felt like 'hello'.


hiiii lj, im off to class again but was just quotewhoring anddd had to post. love&post later with real news.

soo, it's been exactly ONE MONTH since my last update haha... i read this thing everyday too, i just never update. Welp, the past month has been fun, dramatic, busy, and new... new in the light that i've ventured away from hanging out with suzi all the time and got to know new people. Suzi's boyfriend occupies all of her time, and because he lives on her floor, they basically never leave their building and just flip flop from his room to hers and just have sex all the time. Soo, I hang out with Mariel all the time and the fact that she went home this weekend for thanksgiving and won't be back until i come back next sunday just SUPER SUCKS. i missss her so much, we've gotten to much closer and like sometimes we're not even talking we're just laughing for hours haha.. 

I wish that when the quad came she was here so they could have met her, but then again .. i don't because then there would be VERY limited sleeping space haha. Anyway, her and I have become really tight with the two boys down the hall Sam and Harris ... we have small crushes but oh well haha, it's more fun haha. Right now I'm decorating my room for Christmas because I want it done by the time I get back after Thanksgiving. After getting the lights up I'm goingt o head over to the quiet room because I have a test on Monday that I need to do some more studying for. I registered for my classes on Friday, oh and it snowed ! We only got about 5-6 inches, but it's soo beautiful I love it. Also, today is Kate's birthday so we're going to dinner somewhere and then out later. I went to threeeee basketball games this week and they were all SO fun, I loved them. It's easy to love the basketball games when you compare them to the football games haha ... we're 3-0 so they're playing at madison square garden on wednesday . We have 5 new freshman, had one of the best drafts this year soooo basically, fun yea haha. 

I'm really excited to go home, but it's weird leaving everyone here... when mariel left she said it felt like she was graduating because everyone was like saying bye and all sadddface... I think it's because we literally see each other all the time, we all live together, it's like a second family. We didn't believe Gina (ra) when she told us in the beginnning of the year that we'd get so close but now I just can't help but love every one haha. Anyway, time to get back to my day because I realized it's 3 o clock and i want to be in the quiet room by 4 and for atleast an hour so I better hop to it haha ..

 A good guy should bring out the best in you. 
But you don't need a guy to be the best you.” 
                                   -Lauren Conrad


LC is so wise haha. So schools been great, it's getting very fall-like so i'm loving itttt.
Last night I went to a meeting for "First Year Players" - freshman/non theater majors.
Their show this year is Fame, and auditions aren't until January -- but they have 
workshops during the rest of this semester, so I plan to scope out some of them. It'll
give me my play fix for fall that I miss ohh so much haha. I have two tests tomorrow,
how pumped am I ?? Haha, good times. I miiish my friendsss but I don't feel nearly
as far away as I did in the first month of school. I really do love it here, it's so easy to 
love. Halloweeeeen is coming up! I decorated the room last week but we could def
use some more pizzazz. I don't know what to be, I have my costume from last year
up here but I would like to be something new, obv. I'm so0o0o excited for Thanksgiving
break! Wooo, what's up hopefully somewhat like summer in the light that ILL BE
WITH MY BEST FRIENDS!! <3 I'll miss Suzel tho haha. Anywayyyy bye loves :]

  Tonight, I say we just get out of this town
Lets go to Seattle, watch rain fall to the ground
And on our tongues "I love you's" run into each other
But could I really trust her? She said,
"Hey baby baby boy, why you always look so sad?
You got the whole world in the palm of your hand."
But it don't mean a thing if you're not next to me.
I'm so sick, so sick of just always dreaming.

I'm sleeping on the couch, she's married to her mattress.
I think the hardest times are finally gonna pass us.
The glass half full, so watch my eyes
Oh babe I promise that I'll never let what happen last time...



Sooo today was horrendous haha, I had to work with the same freaking lab partner as last week. This boy is commonly referred to "Annoying Boy" and I!!! get stuck with him two weeks in a row. Also, what's with this weather? It is like 90 degrees up here, I'm like dying haha. This week is going by sooo quickly!!! I'm really really really excited to come home next weekend. I love it here and all, but I can't wait to come home for a weekend :) 



"why waste precious time dreaming when waking life is so much more interesting" -Gg



Oh it's raining... o0o0o0o I love thunderstorms

hi hi, so i just had a lovely weekend with three lovely girls. Saturday afternoon at just around 11:20am, the quad arrived at Syracuse. We were reunited, and it felt so good haha. I think they made my love Syracuse more then I did before, showing them around made me realize that it's my school, it's where I live, and I really like it here. Oh & I have good friends here, bonus! So we had a good night of just being the quad, doing what we do best <3 I swear I wouldn't have even had to go out or done anything, just seeing them was so great. i was sad when they left, but I know I'll see them in two weeks anyway!

Ahhh I'm so excited to go home in two weeks !! I'll get to see my friends again, and even some people I didn't see, ohhh and mike <3. Yayyyy October is really going to be the bestttt month ever hahah. 

"I'm dancin on a table at a frat"
"Oh cute, make sure that's all you're dancing on haha"
"Haha, believe me babe"

I'm watching The Wedding Date, loooooveee this movie <3


"... and I think i'd miss you even if we'd never met"


"the hardest part is loving someone, and having the courage to let them love you back"

 Hmm, the first week of classes was fine.. I just don't understand what I write down when it comes to assignments. And I'm not in the habit of checking what work I have to do, I basically rely on Suzi to tell me when to do stuff haha... that's probably not the best idea. I can tell already that it was a bad idea for me to not do any work last night. I planned to, and just kept finding other things to do like all day long. Mariel and I decided that we would clean until 2 and then work until dinner, and after dinner we'd have plenty of time to do whatever until the hills at 10. Yea right. I just kept cleaning or organizing or hanging stuff up or putting stuff away. I did wash, which was fun haha.

Sunday night, we went to a white out party -> we all wore white and it was so adorable. It's wild how persistant some guys are.... but I've been drinking a lot less than I could be, mostly because I know how I am when I'm drunk and I really don't want to mess anything up with Mike because ... idk i just don't want to haha.

I realize that I write the bare minimum about Mike in here haha.. I miss him, the end.

I talked to my mom and dad about coming home sometime in the future haha. I don't know when to come home, because in JUST two weeks the quad is coming here [my gosh I couldn't be more excited] to visit so that'll be like a little home fix haha. And then I know I'll be home for Thanksgiving, so I'm thinking somewhere in the middle of October. Although I'd like to see Ryan's show in the fall, so whenever that is maybe I'll try to do that. Hmmm we'll see how fall pans out. The weather here is getting good ... it was hot for a while but it's starting to get breezy. I'm actually going to run over to the dining hall to grab some dinner and bring it back here because I have work to do. But I went to the mall on Saturday and bought a new hoodie.

Anyway, I guess that's my little update for the past week; even though it's really not so much about the past week and more so about random stuff slash the past two days haha. Kk byeee everyone <3


come on let me hold you touch you feel you
always
kiss you taste you all night
always

K i'm leaving my house in just about 3 hours. I am devistated. 
Yea I'm scared to go to school, I'm like nervous and all that stuff ... 
but tonight was so flippin hard.

The quad are the loves of my life, just like big says.
Big: You girls are the loves of her life, a guy is lucky to come in fourth. -Sex & the City
It hurt, physically hurt to say goodbye to them. 
They're the only thing I'm not worried about though; we'll be okay...

I just hate this. I hate leaving. I hate saying goodbye.

Here in this diary, I write you visions of my summer. It was the best I ever had. There were choruses and sing-alongs, and that unspoken feeling of knowing that right now is all that matters.

hi hi.

so, welcome to the last week.
tie up loose ends?
here's one for ya:
NicKmaNn 124 (12:21:02 AM): sorry for whatever i did to you

i wish it was that easy haha. the best part is that i hardly care. it makes me very happy to not worry about him. about everything he says and how he says it and if anything could ever happen again. what happened in wildwood was the end for me. i did what i wanted and walked away. it was perfect.

NicKmaNn 124 (12:15:21 AM): am i gonna see u before u go to school or no way?
XOLAUR425 (12:15:28 AM): probably not
NicKmaNn 124 (12:15:45 AM): whys that
NicKmaNn 124 (12:15:58 AM): gave u the wrong impression in wildwood???
XOLAUR425 (12:16:13 AM): maybe you didnt get the hint when i said bye

This is sooo lame of me to copy and paste a conversation HAHA, but it's just soo much easier than summing it up, yanno ?

ehh whatever, i have a kink in my neck .. ROBBBBB i need this out haha
Going to newyork<3 tomorrow. excuse me, today. haha